Car Blog: Moving Along

So it’s been awhile since I talked about the good old Camaro. Or maybe not lol I have no idea. With the winter I have been kind of sitting on things since there is not much I can do to it. I managed to find one of the warmer days a month ago to rip out the interior. I started from the back moving forward. Took out the seats, the panels and then moved on to the front seats.

The front seats I knew were an issue. For one that track was rusted like hell which is not good. Next the passenger seat shaked so a bolt was not holding the seat track right. This would be caused by the seat track on one side being rusted that it partially broke. Next the upholstery was fucked. The vinyl was in good shape but the material itself is not good having tears in it. And the foam was aged but still ok. Looking online I found that I could buy new upholstery for about $400 for the front and back seats. That is not bad but still quite a chunk of change as it doesn’t solve my seat track problem. New tracks go for about $70 a piece if your lucky and well if you want to replace the foam that is also an extra $120 a seat. So in all it was a bigger investment then I wanted to do. But I need to do something.

I managed to find some modern racer seats that somewhat have the similar shape and look as the old ones. They also came with new custom seat tracks. This sold me on them immediately. I would have a color I was going for (white + black) have both front seats and the seat tracks. Definitely a win. I figure I can look at maybe repairing the older seats and ebaying them off without the seat tracks obviously.

I then decided that the carpet bothered me. The guy previously installed his own carper. It did not end where it was supposed to in the front and on the drivers side it was not sealed correctly so it was sticking up. I also had a fear that there was something with the floor. I had already found a hole in the back which I can repair with some Bondo however I had an iching feeling there could be other holes. OMG!!

Rusted Rear Floor

Rusted Floor Front Drivers Side

I tore up the carper to find there were lovely huge rush stains. I looked to see another insulating carper totally rust covered. Lifting it up my fears were correct. All floor sections were totally and completely rusted. The individual had attempted to install a floor pan in two sections however he did not seem to use the appropriate floor pan nor did he weld the pans in. He seemed to have used a strong sealant. Yes it was just like caulking. I poked it with my screw driver and to my horror was able to begin penetrating into the goo. I started to laugh. If I learned anything about this project is that expect anything, prepare for the worst and you won’t be mad. So I got some giggles out of it but at the same time I worried about the set back. I am tight on budget at the moment having bough many replacement pieces so replacing my floor seemed an expensive ordeal, Not just because of the floor mind you but because the carpet also needed changing.

Thank the gods for the internet. I managed to find via ebay a store in Detroit that had new floor pans for me and for pretty cheap too and cheap shipping. Soooo I ordered that. Parts should arrive within a week or two and car will immediately get brought to the shop for welding. Unfortunately I do not have access nor the skill to do that work yet.

So that aside I began ripping the dash apart to see what other surprises lurked. So far all is good and I am inspecting the wiring. I discovered 2 wires uncovered and “live” which is baffling. Considering I need to run the security system and rewire to accomodate Ripping things down to the basics is a must. I also managed to get ahold of a GM factory manual for the car which has an exploded view of the car with just about every option available. It’s pretty cool and should help me figure things out.

The doors are about done. I am doing some touch ups as some of the tape I used was a tad to strong and pulled some bits off which was annoying. The car will look pretty fly with the white and black interior…I think. I might adjust when putting it all together. I could have gone totally original colored interior but I wanted something a bit more modern while still being classic.

I got a new power steering gearbox. It’s a pretty heavy piece of equipment. I was surprised as it’s rather small but that should solve the last of the car leaks. I also got a new tail light panel. This is essentially the floor of the trunk.It also supports the gas tank. Mine is rotted out mostly so very very important to have something supporting your gas tank. I also received a new car horn as well as a new interior mirror.

I have a few more odds and ends to pick up but I am pacing it out as much as possible. I am looking at a night time mechanics course similar to what my brother is taking. I have picked up some books recently on restoring cars and been enjoying it plus with what I have been doing physically to the car. So might pursue that when Marie is done her school. I am looking for another line of work to potentially fall back on down the road as an alternative career. Who knows

OK Go – This Too Shall Pass

This week’s Monday Music Video has a bit of a storied history. If you’re at all familiar with OK Go, their popularity was really springboarded by people sharing their previous videos. Since their last album, however, the music industry has become a bit more tight and controlling of content, and disables embedding of music videos from YouTube. God forbid it ends up in the wrong hands! Or something. In reality it’s so the publisher can get a cut of the profits from ads, which they wouldn’t get if the video was embedded. So, naturally, when OK Go’s newest video hits the net, EMI disables embedding, thereby drastically reducing the audience that will ever see the brilliant video they made. This, obviously, caused a bit of a fight between the band and the publisher, ultimately resulting in the band going independent. But just before they went indie (again), they made a second version of the non-embeddable video. This time, State Farm sponsored it so that it could be embedded. Here’s that video.

And if you’d like to see the original, it’s here.

Well hello there!

Hello people of this site, it has been awhile. I hope all has been well and do apologize as I have not been particularly active on the web if not for Mafia Wars lol So here is the low down. About three months ago I began showing increasing symptoms of something I have had all my life called Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Now it’s not one of those things that is always readily apparent to understand. Essentially my mind makes up convuluted ideas and to prevent these things from happening I perform a ritual of sorts to elleviate the anxiety caused by this. Yeah sounds weird right. Try living with it.

It started when I was young and in elementary school. It was simply things like walking over the lines of sidewalks but escalated to making beds ten times in a row. It died down during the years and seemed to appear in my later teenage years. This time in the form of cleaning hands often as well as reading paragraphs multiple times. And lately it has been reading, moving things, checking things, etc. Just a lot more. I knew there was a problem. I was having odd emotions. Feeling guilty over things I should not, feeling bad about things that yeah I probably should have at the time but now in the future should not. So this new year it came to a point where I felt this coming at me. I could not place it. I thought it would all pass. It did before right? However it did not and things got progressively worse to the point where I would get suicidal thoughts. You know you have problems when…So I started seeing a psychologist. Now seeing a psychologist is alleviating in itself. It’s someone who is trained to listen objectively and they are trained professionals.

Going into it I thought I was just plain crazy. I had assumptions that I had OCD but I also tend to obsess over every ailment. Oh I see a link. Anyways I did not want to go in saying ok doc I have this, cure me. I explained my life situation with all the fun mannerisms I do and he just said you have OCD and there is nothing to be ashamed of.

I was happy to hear it confirmed. The evidence was there just not something you feel qualified to diagnose with absolute certainty on your own. I know, I tried. Oh I checked out google and found OCD sites but the more I read the more I thought I had all these signs. It even felt amplified. So in all help was needed and the facts had to come out.

OCD is generally a genetic disorder (wish I had a plasmid to resolve that) where your brain does not produce enough saratonin so your brain gets it’s wires crossed so to speak. You can try via therapy to resolve the issues and control your obsessions or you may take medication which is typically prozac, elavil, paxil, whatnot which are commonly used in depressions. Oh and usually depressions result from OCD as well as a side thing. Which is exactly what happened this week.

For awhile now I have had trouble focusing on just about anything. I was rip roaring with the hub, with school ideas, wanting to expand the family, fix the car, etc. Believe it or not this all did not help me at all. I would wake up tired despite 8 hours sleep and just go through the motions. Feeling detached. This week I just broke. I had started thinking of things two years ago and just felt horrible about it. Despite that all was said and done I still had the feeling but I could not control it. I had trouble keeping still and just relaxing. I would sleep but it was not restful sleep. So I decided to go to the doctors. My psychologist god bless him is on a three week cruise. Fucker! 😉

So the doctor provided me pills to sleep if need be as well as anti-depressants. It won’t kick in for awhile but it is a start. I also have to see a second psychologist as the clinic wants to absolutely confirm it but after me explaining everything to them well, it is pretty convincing.

Suffice it to say that is what has been keeping me hidden away. Lots of crying, lots of messed up emotions and some self exploration along the way. The best way I can describe it right now is that part of my brain tries to find anything in life that has bothered me or been hurtful and then keeps processing it in my mind. Sometimes it will just plain make shit up or keep running the event in my mind and try to analyze things to make it seem bad. Anything essentially to bother me. It is almost like a voice you have trouble tuning out. It’s very hard to deal with and understand let alone explain it to others.

I was very fortunate in the support so far. I first tried explaining the OCD to my parents about two weeks ago but they passed it off as being tired and I needed to rest. Guess thats the old fashioned way of doing things lol But when I talked to them this week after my break down and explained the process they seemed to be more ears because they visually saw the impact it was having. Everyday has been a struggle but it also shed light onto aspects of my life. My shopping tendencies, my obsession on the car, buying a house, buying a computer. When all these things or events came around it was never something I could do, I HAD to do it. I invested 100% of myself to these things. Some of it was just being selfish at times. That’s a sort of blessing of seeing aspects of your life over and over. You get to learn from all your mistakes and see what made you who you are.

I have had other things pop up which helped cause the depression. Some work issues like a person from HR who when I emailed in sick by accident replied to it thinking it was something else and saying that I was a retard and being a baby. That is just among many problems with my work but it made me realize I am just not happy there. And is IT what I really want to do. Problem is I have lots of ideas. The Hub store, I have an idea for a cafe restaurant, I am interested in human ressources studies (despite my bad experience lol) as well as mechanic since I have really enjoyed working on the camaro. But thats the crux of it all right now. Am I wanting to do a particular course or path or am I being led by an obsession / compulsion. It’s very hard to say and thats also what drives me batty.

Right now it’s taking the meds and eliminating the stressers and seeing how to better handle things to reduce the anxiety. Some days are ok but you realize at some point how much you beat yourself up on things around the house. It also makes you think sometimes you bite more then you can chew. In all OCD is a very real thing. It’s intriguing from a perspective to see how it works and scary when you experience it. But like my doctor said, it’s me VS it and the sooner I deal then I can beat it otherwise it will control me for life.

Rest assured I will be back online at some point in a better capacity then I am now. It’s just a matter of time. Oh and PAX is still on just in case any of you two started wondering. I need a vacation thought if I check the hotel door six times, guide me to the tv to distract me 😉

The Heavy – How You Like Me Now?

For this week’s Monday Music Video, I bring you my newest musical addiction: The Heavy. I just discovered them on Friday while watching AUX, a music TV station that actually plays music videos (imagine that?). The toughest part was simply choosing whether to post this video, or another awesome one of theirs called Sixteen. I hope you like them as much as I do!